Difficult Soul

"So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.  For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want.  But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law." Galatians 5:17-18

 

Sometimes I think I'm crazy. But when I read these verses I know I'm not. Every day that I pick up my cross and seek to take another step towards the calling of my Savior, I can be sure that Satan is right behind me, trying to trip me, reminding me of my failures and stealing my joy. The enemy comes at me like my favorite cheat meal after a month of clean eating and hard training. He knows what my flesh craves and brings it to me in a perfect bow. But, because I have the full armor of God I can fight my daily battle knowing the war has already been won.

 

Some days are just tough. Some days this Jesus life almost doesn't seem worth it. Some days I don't know if God will keep His promises. My soul aches with these concerns but the Spirit in me is stronger. I beg God everyday that His Spirit in me be louder than any other voice.

 

When my strength isn't' enough, let me tap into Yours, Lord. When my heart, mind and soul turn against me, keep calling me. Don't give up on me. Give me a new day to fight and to be more than a conqueror in You. Amen!